A Gift of Gold

I woke up in the still of night

With Your voice in my head.

I thought I’d pretend not to hear

And linger in my bed.

But You were having none of that.

You called to me once more,

And I soon found both of my feet

Shuffling across the floor.

I didn’t know why You’d called me,

We’d spoken long last night

As I lifted all of the fears

That I hoped You’d set right.

I worried that the years roll on

And I am all alone.

I wasn’t sure who’d care for me

When my mind turns to stone.

I wonder if I’ll make ends meet

When, every day, it seems

As if the world is bent upon

Dismembering my dreams.

I can’t be sure there’ll be enough

To get from here to there,

And some days I’m not even sure

If “there” is anywhere.

I spoke with you and then I wept

For all that worries me

Until the last stars vanished in

Night clouds I couldn’t see.  

And then, when all the world still slept,

You woke me up to talk,

And kept on calling out to me

When I opted to balk.

So there I stood, with aching heart,

With a mind numb and cold,

And suddenly I watched my world

Start filling up with gold.

You took my worries and my fears

And held them in Your hand

Then scattered them in golden flames

That burst across the land.

Oh Lord, I don’t know why I doubt,

Why I worry each day,

When You are right there beside me

Every step of the way.

I still have questions in my life,

But not a single doubt

That You love me and, in Your plan,

You have it all worked out.

So here I sit washed in the gold

That You woke me to see,

I rest within the promise that

There is enough for me.

John 16:20

Very truly I tell you, you will weep and mourn while the world rejoices. You will grieve, but your grief will turn to joy.